Lots of writing... all night long.
Lots of coffee... to keep me awake.
Oh man...
I can do this! 

What do you do when a crazed Bi-Polar kid you dated when you were 15 won't leave you alone?
What do you do when his older sister is one of your best friends and doesn't believe you?
What do you do when she is getting married...& thinks it would be funny to have you two walk down the aisle together?
Hilarious.
I'm actually scared for my well being from this kid.
I sent his messages to my sister to prove how crazed he is and how much of a stalker he is and HAS BEEN for the past 6 years. 

Just what I needed!

 I can't believe...
A. I'm awake right now when I have observations in the morning.
B. That I am feeling this way

I don't know I have been in a great mood then I see certain people being involved in relationships and it actaully got to me this time.  Not that I want to be with these certain individuals, just that they have someone and I don't.  They moved on, and I haven't yet.  Yeah, I have my options, but nothing worth it for right now.  Nothing perminant.  Nothing that involves something real. 

Maybe it's just stress.
Maybe it's my hormones.
Maybe it's that I'm tired.  Tired of school.  Tired of classes. Tired.

I need this break.

Oh yeah, I sprained my wrist... by the way.  Yeah, don't ask.

Tomorrow I get to see Brianna... she will cheer me up.

I hate bitching since I have had a really good year so far... just today, today I was down and out.
Tomorrow will bring better days I'm sure.

so a homeless man tried to hyjack the car while i was trying to make a left turn.

he was an inch away screaming and babbling random things at me... i didn't make eye contact and when i thought he was about to grab the handle...

i fucking gunned it.

well i learned my lesson of never going to the wendy's in down town atlanta after dark.

Do you think, everything, everyone, is going mental,
It seems to me that it's spiralling outta control and it's inevitable,
Now don't you think,
This time is yours, this time is mine,
Its temperamental,
It seems to me, we're on all fours,
Crawling on our knees,
Someone help us please

Oh Jesus Christ almighty,
Do I feel alright? No not slightly,
I wanna get a flat I know I can't afford it,
It's just the bureaucrats who won't give me a mortgage,
Well it's very funny cos I got your fuckin money,
And I'm never gonna get it just because of my bad credit
Oh well I guess I mustn't grumble,
I suppose that's just the way the cookie crumbles.

Chorus
Oh yeah, I'm fine,
Everything's just wonderful,
I'm having the time of my life.

Don't you want something else,
Something new, than what we've got here,
And don't you feel it's all the same,
Some sick game and it's not insincere,
I wish I could change the ways of the world,
Make it a nice place
Until that day, I guess we stay,
Doing what we do
Screwing who we screw

Why can't I sleep at night,
Don't say it's gonna be alright,
I wanna be able to eat spaghetti bolognaise,
and not feel bad about it for days and days and days.
In the magazines they talk about weight loss,
If I buy those jeans I can look like kate moss,
Oh no it's not the life I chose,
But I guess that's the way that things go,

Chorus x2

Ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba etc.

Oh Jesus Christ almighty,
Do I feel alright? No not slightly,
I wanna get a flat I know I can't afford it,
It's just the bureaucrats who won't give me a mortgage,
Well it's very funny cos I got your fuckin money,
And I'm never gonna get it just because of my bad credit
Oh well I guess I mustn't grumble,
I suppose that's just the way the cookie crumbles.

Oh well I guess it's just the way that things go,
I suppose that's the way the cookie crumbles,
Oh well I guess it's just the way that things go,
I suppose that's the way the cookie crumbles.



She is awesome you all should check her out.

-car will be done on friday
-luau saturday
-packing, wireless card, camera, furniture... by july 28
-aug 1st... arrive at rowan.. woo
-aug 5... retreat
-tat fund... haha 20 bucks. so far.
-ohio? quite possibly.

12 dayssss
wooo
my car will be done on friidayy
annd...
i've come to terms with me being nocturnal.
hah

I don't know if anyone was aware but... the internet... is not real life.

Thanks.

I love being attacked via myspace and facebook.

What a tool.

I also enjoy when boys really don't have balls.
They need to GROW SOME.

I'm going to go to the store and buy cigs.
I've taken up smoking again.

My friend Steve said his car was worse then mine. ($5100 worth of damage compared to $4000) He said his car only took about 2 weeks to fix.... maybe mine will too!? I hope so...

I need to leave soon for rowan... I'm trying to get there atleast acouple days before the retreat. Then if I have time I'm planning a roadtrip at the end of August to swing on over to Ohio. Who knows if that will work... since all my other attempts on going there this summer have failed.

Eh c'est la vie.

I'm excited for school... I'm excited about the new people... and the old that I left behind. I miss so many people there and I was only there for 8 months.

I also can't wait to see how things turn out with a certain someone... the saga continues haha.

My parents just accused me of stealing an 18 pack last night... what a surprise.

I'm just going to say fuck it and just get a tattoo... they already know it's going to happen soon anyway.


That one still kills me.

I forgot to talk about my freak of a day,

I really don't think anything could top how bad this day was...
Soooo I wake up and my sister calls asking me to pick her up for the airport... so I wake up Toni...

We get in my car and I have no gas at all... on the way out of the driveway there was this little kitten under a cars front bumper. I thought she was sleeping so I went to scare her I was afraid she was going to get hit. As i walked closer I realized this kitten (who by the way was like 8 weeks old) was barely living...

I had to do something so I wrapped her up with a blanket.

Toni and I decided we would try to take her somewhere and get her help after we got Colleen.

So we're at the gas station.

I walk up to pay for my gas and Toni goes inside to get milk or water for the kitten...

All of a sudden I hear "Uhhh Courtney! Your car is moving!"

Fuck! I left it in neutrol by accident... (this is after ten minutes of being in the gas station.. wierd right?)

I chase after it and I'm running so hard my shoes come off...

My 2005 Toyota Corolla is picking up speed down a hill and heading straight for a head on collision with a pick up truck.

It was like in slow motion... I watched the entire front of my car be DESTROYED by the truck... it was as if it hit a brick wall.

So while we're waiting for the tow truck NOT ONE humane society or vet was open... what the hell is the deal with that? That's like... a hospital not open on sundays.

But "Smash".. her new name... she was coming along more since I was giving her water...

So after the tow truck comes..etc etc... we drive to Petco to take care of Smash... no vet.. nothing... but the lady tells us there's one "right down the road.. they're open... you can't miss it!"

We're driving... and driving... and driving...

We're lost.

I look down... and even though smash was just meowing... she had passed away... the poor thing didn't have a chance...

...What a day.

Oh yeah... to top things off I found out about a boy... dating this girl...

It wasn't the best of days... hopefully I'll get some karma points for trying to save a life. :(